I haven't missed the fact that it has been a year since I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  No matter how much I wish to forget it or even enjoy a fictional idea that it didn't really happen to me--it did, and it's been a whole year.
Honestly, I have grown so much in that year.  It's all growth I am glad to have.  I wouldn't wish it on anyone else, but every day I think thoughts and do things a little differently.  And thanks to an awesome plastic surgeon, I actually look better than I did!  Ha!  What a bonus!
I look at my family differently.  I look at my day differently.  I use my time differently.  I am more merciful.  I see little things as more impactful, more worthwhile.  I enjoy free time more freely.  I am more thankful for incidentals.  Or should I say, incidentals are less incidental to me.
In a way, I am more selfish--in that I choose to place my family first, worrying less about making others happy.  (Not that I make lots of people happy here--what with the whole "clean your room or the chicken house; your choice" thing! ;)
I hope to never visit breast cancer again.  I want to be an old, old Christian lady, setting a good example of being gracious and faithful and not crabby!  But until I get there, I want to be a good example of a faithful woman, who was thankful and vibrant and kind, and funny.  And a great wife, a good mother, a kind friend and a faithful follower of Christ. 
I am thankful to have been given another year to work on those goals.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
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